"How am I gonna be an optimist about this?"
That's the perpetual question I have in my calling to be part of the church, to be faithful to Jesus, and reclaim the title "Christian" from all the negative connotations it brings up in peoples' minds!
When I look around and see the walls keep tumbling down of the movement that I love, grey clouds rolling over the hills, bringing darkness from above and it all looks a little bit hopeless, what am I going to do!?
But when Pompeii by Bastille came on in the car today, it was a different line that really jumped out at me:
POV: you're a disciple who meets the risen Jesus.
Here's what he sings to you.
POV: You've watched your Rabbi die, it's the Sabbath, and you're praying and preparing to enter the new week to carry on His teachings with the passion he instilled in you.
Here's your prayer:
POV: You're on the cross next to Jesus. You're in anguish and your need release. Peace. And Jesus says to you "This day you will be with me in paradise."
This is the feeling that washed over you:
POV: You're a disciple at the last supper, and Jesus has dropped the bombshell that this is the last time you'll be together for a while.
There's an awkward silence, and this is playing in the background:
POV: You're Nicodemus, or another Pharisee or Scribe who is trying to reconcile who you present to the world and how you feel challenged by how Jesus is.
Here's your confession:
POV: You're one of Jesus' female followers, and you've managed to get your hands on our current androcentric Bible...
Frustratingly, and in contradiction to your experience of Jesus, here's how you read your story told by a patriarchal society:
POV: Jesus has just cleared the Temple, and you realise it doesn't have to be the way it was before.
Here's the rallying cry:
POV: You're a donkey with dreams of grandeur at having been picked to carry "the king" down unknown roads and into the fanfare...
Here's what you imagine:
I don't listen to the radio in the car at the moment. It's normally audio books. Sometimes I get in the car and the radio is on though. I have no idea how my car radio picks stations, but somehow it's been "Capital" recently.
Anyway, I jumped in the car and this version of this song was playing:
As I listened to it I imagined it was blending the story of Jesus with someone absorbed in a "night out" culture.
When I got home I decided to look up the lyrics and see if there was an acoustic version I might appreciate more musically. Here's what I found:
If you'd rather listen and come to your own conclusions about the eclectic mix of songs I worked through in Lent 2023, here's the Spotify Playlist!