"I Don't Know Jesus Any more..."

"Dexter and Sinister" - Elbow

An advert flashed up on my Facebook feed for the Elbow album "Giants of all Sizes", with single lines playing from a few of the songs.

Perhaps understandably the line that jumped out at me was the one above... "I don't know Jesus anymore."

A quick Ecosia search and I found the song and had a listen, and the disappointment flowed out of me...

Musically it seemed fine, but the words left me wanting more...

I don't think I got it first time round. This time it's saying a little bit more, but I'm still left wonder what I would want to say in a song containing the same line...

If I was to get my lament on, and declare as the Psalmists and other Biblical writers do countless times, that I have no idea what's going on, and the foundation of my faith is shaking due to the seeming absence of the core, what would I say?

Lyrics:

And I don't know Jesus anymore
And an endless sleep is awaiting me
And I haven't finished yet
And I'm not a dog for the end of days
I'm a bird in a hurricane
With the heaviest heart jack hammering in me
And I don't know Jesus anymore
Unstuck and the whole archipelago is rocking like a suicide pedalo at high tide
Blazing eyes, hey how' d'ya keep your eyes ablaze
In these faith free, hope free, charity free days
Come back to the light
Come pull on the bullwhip around my heart
Take me to the sea
Let me peel and fade by the seaside
Where dead men go to die
And long standing affairs fizzle in the brine
And everybody stares with Eastwood eyes at the horizon
And I haven't finished yet
And loss is a part of life this long
But Dexter and Sinister?
I've the heaviest heart jack hammering in me
And I don't know Jesus anymore
And I don't know Jesus anymore